It's a weird feeling, having a daughter away in college. The only word that best fits is empty.
Life is going on, we are busy, and enjoying our time with Morgan, but still feel empty w/o sunshine. I know many say this feeling changes in time, and I'm sure it will...but it's how I feel today!
It's been a tough week all around. A friend of Cassie's father passed away to cancer - a cruel disease that has no mercy. We knew him too and they attended our church. His life was changed a year ago when he got the news of this cancer, but his life also changed because he began his walk with God. Kassie, his daughter was a major part in his salvation. It's the only peace & comfort we can take from his passing - my heart breaks for them, cause I know they must miss him so much. I try to imagine what my life would be like today if Rob were taken from us. It's part of this life, death, and I know Rob or I one will have to go thru it. The pain that comes in the pit of my stomach just thinking about it is all I can bear. We need to take each and every day as a true blessing from God. Each breath we take and each minute that passes....all blessings from God. We take so much for granted, at least I'm guilty of that. But this week, my eyes have been opened to what we are blessed with. I'm so grateful/blessed with the children God gave me, for the experience of butterfly and eskimo kisses. For the wonderful feeling of watching your child succeed high school and move into the college phase and beginning of adulthood. For the experience of watching your youngest child start coming out of her shell and try things you never dreamt she'd try!
Time has gone by and life keeps moving along, and I'm trying hard to hold on while each day passes. I pray for my children and their faith - that during these times in their life that they remain strong in their faith - and that they are reminded thru experiences they will face that nothing can snatch them from their Heavenly Fathers hands. I'm grateful for life experiences. I'm grateful that I have a family to experience the new things that are to come. I'm grateful that I have a Savoir that loves me and will never leave me.
Please pray for the Smith family.
Denise
